Friday, 5 November 2010

JUST CAN'T DIG DOWN DEEP ENOUGH





Getting out of bed sucks.
But not for the reason you think.


I just can't seem to get it together. I have more pain than usual which is really saying something. I've tried adding ginger to my growing list of supplements because it is supposed to help with pain. So far, nothing has helped.

I'm getting frustrated.

What hurts the most is walking. I do try to power through it but it's tough to do. It truly does feel like I'm walking on broken glass. I don't know if it's a tendon problem or just a run-of-the-mill Fibromyalgia problem. I can't tell. Every five minutes it seems to be something else so pin-pointing the cause of these symptoms is a tough one.

I'm really trying to walk anyway but I have to add layers of insoles and gel to my tennis shoes and even then I have to wrap my heel with an ace bandage. That can't be normal, can it? Does anyone else have this kind of problem with their feet? Also, the humidity is rising so just add a lot of whole body pain to the pain in my feet. 

Geez, just add the tiara right now. 

How in the hell are you supposed to exercise when your body is crying out? I'm not a slacker. I'm still going to the gym and walking but I have to take pain medication to do even that. I come home and I'm wiped out. My feet hurt, my hands hurt, my body hurts. Everything hurts. Should I be walking on a foot that really hurts? Now that I've started to exercise I hate to stop, even for a day. What is the difference between tenacity and stupidity? Why can't I recognize the difference or have I already crossed the line from one to the other? 

If it sounds like I'm whining; I am.

I really wanted a positive post.

But I just can't dig down deep enough to find anything positive today.

Crap.






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